I am now more interested to read and (maybe) absorb information about self- motivational­ knowledge, financial planning for my retirement age, fashion for working mum, children psychology, a bit of simple recipe (but I don't like cooking), deco information for hobby (although so far, I just can achieve it thru dream...) and info about how to live fullest and happy with whatever I have

Hmm, just want to share with the reader, that I still have something which has a sentimental value (for me) comes from England. It is a Honda Accord car 2.0. It comes in one piece via ship and was purchased in England. It was made in 1988 and maroon colour and till now, I am a keeper of a car and considered it as a second car. The car was bought by Julie in cash, (and of course, mum's money) while she was studied at University Liverpool in 1994-96. The car was being used by Julie for a few years after came back to Malaysia in 1996. The tax is double of the price of the car. Huargghh!!! Then, when she bought a new car, I take over to keep the car and spent a few thousand to overhaul the car and change whatever necessary and till now, the car still 'steady' on the road. The only problem, is to find the second-hand items for the car coz it is no more in the market.

Eid Fitri 2009

It has been quite long before I write again. We went back to our hometown in Kota Bharu to celebrate Eid Fitri for about a week. My big brothers (Faisal and Faizul) and a sister (Julie) including the families were around and getting busy dealing with nieces and nephews, and we don't have time to surf for internet due to the Eid Fitri and 'food yummy yummy' invitations from relatives and friends every day until the last day of our 'hometown' holidays.

We came back last Friday to avoid the traffic jam and spent another two days (Saturday and Sunday) resting and did groceries shopping at Giant. Luckily, we were not stucked in the jam to and from Kota Bharu. The journey took about average 10 hours instead of 7 - 8 hours in normal days. Sunday, we went to Faris's new house (he just moving on Thursday) also at Denai Alam, and again 'makan-makan­' at his house.And, at work : you know... after one week holiday, the 'tray in' is unbearable..­... to see me sitting the other side of 'it'. :) Well.. gotta get back to routine life.

My maid (previous one) is continue her service with me again and she started work yesterday. Thank God!!Hopeful­ly, my life will be back to normal soon, and it started with the formal dinner (Mahathir Scientific Award) last night and I was back at 12:00 midnight. It is sometimes good to be around the scientists, but sorry, I couldn't get along well with this kind of species. He! He! yeah!

I'm thinking of working late again... He! He! My workholic routine, is obsessing me again.... Well!!! it is not really the 'workholic things' but the works seems neverending.

My sentimental car, Honda Accord 2.0 (1988) - it still can be used till today, and I keep all the records of the services for easy reference in future. For the parts, my mechanic has his own contact and usually he will find the parts for me, and so far, the car don't give me much problem. Hope that the car will get the 'antique status' soon, so that I can sell it at higher price. He! He! Call me for those who interested!!! :)

This afternoon, Aina called me at the office asking for the caster sugar, and maple syrup to bake some biscuits based on the recipe book that I bought last weekend. I think she's willing to do this due to her 'boringness'­ at home and alone. I just let her do it but not allowed her to use the oven (mine is not the electric oven), so it is dangerous for her to use fire, and asked her to wait for me coming back from the office to bake them. When I came back, she did make biscuits, but I don't think they can be eaten up and we decide to throw them away, and will do it again this weekend.

Aisyah now, is lying down on the floor doing some dot-dot colouring. At the age of nearly 3, she doesn't wear diapers anymore and she can talk a lot... but still doesn't want to give up breastfeed especially when she wanna sleep at night. He! He! :)

Now, time 8:20 am, I'm looks tired and sleepy in front of the computer at the office. Every morning gotta wake up at 4:30 to prepare for 'sahur' and continue with the maintaining the home, then gotta wake the children to get shower and ready for the 'Day care'. This morning, Aina doesn't want to go to the Centre, then I just leave her at home and ask the neighbour's maid to look (on-and-off)­ on her. My previous maid inform the neighbour's maid that she wanna continue her services with me and ask me either it is OK and want an increase her salary which is higher compared to the market price. I said OK to increase the salary but I put a limit for the max salary that I'm gonna pay her, or else forget about it.

K, I need to start working now... and arrghhh always covered for other people job... although my own work has never finished....­ Anybody... do you have any work for me?? :) and the pay should be higher than now.... (emm I'm sounds like my maid...) He! He! Just kiddin'

I love my job and not really mind to be responsible on other person's job. I treat it as 'my opportunities to learn' and (at least!) I'm aware that I actually 'can do' it.

Now all of my children in the Day Care Centre till 6 - 7:00 pm, then I will fetch all of them to go back home. Life now is quite exhausted, due to the work commitment, and now I gotta do two jobs coz the Admin Executives is on maternity leaves till Sept 09. I don't know either my Director is aware that I'm about to 'burst' with the load, and now am trying to cope with all of it, and think positive about that but no doubt, that I'm a bit frustrating and sad about the delegation of the jobs. Isk! isk! isk!...

Life in Family Commitment - Well... now we are in Ramadhan Holy month, so I hope that I will be more patience and softer with the family life, although the work sometimes unbearable for a little lady like me to organise and manage every single things at home. And I try harder to keep maintain the happy and enjoy our life. Hope that the children will appreciate our sacrifies contribution­ while they are grown up.

I think, it is good to eat grass-based products as the source of energy for the body, in addition that we are still eating meat, and fish as other supplement for the body, in moderate ways.

Moderate - This is actually, my favourite words especially in advicing or teaching the kids about life. Everything that we do must be in a moderate ways and even eating good food, but if you eat too much, then it will be harm for you. So far, I try to lead our life in moderation.

Works getting more busy again... Today, the auditors will be coming, and I have to entertained them, well... only for lunch and no compromised for dinner... He! He!

The children getting better but still on medication. The H1N1, still under control but the patients keeps growing day by day, and there is a few schools have to be closed due to it. I don't know how the G will handle this matter.

Rat Race -The ends will never meet. People will not satisfied with whatever they have, and they will want more and more.During 1950s, the price of goods is not that high compared to nowadays. They keep increasing but the income earning is rarely increase relatively with the price of goods. Maybe this is one of the factors that make people think that they are not earning enough money for the family. The cost of living is getting higher compared to the income earned. Then, the wife will find job to share raising the family. But do the guys agreed to share the 'other responsibili­ty' at home???

Maid - Still not have one yet. I think I managed to avoid being cheated by the cheeky and intelligent net scammer, but could not avoid being cheated by the 'uneducated'­ Indonesian maids for a few times and involved thousands of $$$. I think they (Indonesian agents and maids) used to do this job and keep thinking one step ahead of me. In addition, that I quite desperate for their services and willing to pay in advance as long as I get a maid ASAP.

Now, gotta learned to be independent and need to find ways to better manage my time and money, and of course gotta 'hold my craziness' with the children, and maintain to be 'cool'. He! He!

Car Boot Sale - This practise is not familiar in Malaysia, but this afternoon, I read a newspaper, and there is a car boot sales in Sunway and we can rent one parking lot for this purpose. Quite interesting,­ coz it is a good idea to get rid of our old things with money. Yeah!! we got a lot of things but don't have time to sort it out for the 'car boot sales' tomorrow. Maybe next time...

Yesterday morning, while driving on the way to the office, I listened to the radio. The topic is why Malaysian Women more attracted to the outsiders instead of local men, and there is a few case where they were being cheated and ending up involved in drugs or human traficking etc out of the country.

I agree with a few experienced callers, saying most of foreginers (European or Middle East men) are more gentlement, caring and loving compared to Malaysian. I think, culturally, we Malaysian have not been teached to show the cares and the love to others, maybe due to the shyness in the cultures.

The men here seems to be treated like a king (not all but mostly), where we don't share the everyday house work and kids. Men should not be in the kitchen, they just read newspaper, and eat when time comes while everything is ready on the table, watching TV and sleep.I really sad to see this attitude, coz women also work and contribute to the family in monetary term and energy. The guys!!! :(

In education : the condition for women to continuing education in University level is higher compared to the men, but still there are more women study in University level (maybe 60 : 40). Huh!!

Daddy...will always be in my Heart

Well, today, I'm feel bad. Somebody psycho that I don't know called me and yelled at me without reasons. I tried to control myself but burst into tears when she talked about my late father and started to talk bad about him and she didn't even know him.

Daddy... a dedicated headmaster in one of the prominent school in Kota Bharu, kind of workoholic, dedicated and commited with his work. Very silent and independent guy and only will talk when he felt neccessary. We used to understand him thru his body language.

I still remember on the day he passed away, mom remind us that Daddy is and will always love us, but he didn't know how to show it to us. I'm very fond of him. 'Anak bapak' ler katakan... Most of his figure and behaviour was reflecting in me.

I'm so sad coz I didn't have a chance to tell him that I love him soo much, and am still remember 'the way he looked at me' on the day before he go where I really wanna hug him ( at least for the last) , but I couldn't .... till now... But, I know that he will always be with me... here.. in my heart!!!

Love you.... Dad.... and you will always be with me in whatever I do, and wherever I go...

Al-Fatihah....

A funny story - yesterday morning, I tried to find my handphone but couldn't find it, since I'm in a hurry to go to the office, I just left it at home, hope that my maid will found it later.When I get back in the evening, my maid told me that my handphone had been found inside Aisya's diaper.

All of us are laughing, and she seems sooo innocents and 'cool'. Based on Aina's story, actually last night, the sister wanna grab the handphone from her to play games and she hide the handphone inside her diapers to avoid them seeing it and ending up sleeping with it for the whole night till the next morning...

Now, gotta buy a new one... He! He! coz couldn't stand the smell...

Growing Pains

Two of my daughters jumping around here and there. Hope that they will sleep soon. It's difficult to raise children nowadays, especially with the social life being wilder, the inflation rate increasing and the cost of living is getting higher. We must be very careful and prudent in spending our money.


Sometimes, I feel that "time flies soo fast" and we couldn't chased them. I still remember of my life being a child and freely ride a bike all around the place in my hometown with friends and all the parents know and visit each other. Compared to today's life where the situation is not the same in term of value for money and safety environment for children. Most of the parents (like me) nowadays are very busy with their working life.. and time seems not enough for us to spent our precious time with them.

I start missing my time with them... and try to devote all my life to them.

What Women Want...

Some guys find, it is unimportant to show how they feel. "Ah! there's no point, my baby knows that I love her". Yeah, sure we know you love us, but we need the verification sometimes. We aren't asking for roses, or endless showers of gifts, but more of the little affectionate acts. The way he looks into her eyes or randomly takes her hand and kiss the back of it, burst into a love song - however out of tune it may be, we love it...

We absolutely love these little things, and we just start fretting when a guy slows down with it. We start feeling upset and in turn, start to gets him annoyed, too.

Unnerving. But we don't always have to fight. Sometimes, it is great to take a night off and sit down beside each other and talk through all the problems and stress. Try to understand and realize what has been triggering such tension and irrational behaviour.

Some girls like the looks, some like money, but all of us, just plainly want him to care and comprehend our heart's language. We may difficult at times, but if the guy is willing to work with us in understanding who we really are..., Life will be 'perfect' for all....

Great Day...

It is a rainy morning, gloomy and cold out there. I am so reluctant to get up from the warmth of the bed, felt it would be the nicest thing to just tug in and do nothing but read or just cuddled and fall asleep again.

Then, a very refreshing smell fill in the air, fragrant sweet smell linger in the air, then I see a cuppa of tea and toasted breads are being held in on a tray. OOooo.. is it for me?? Hmm...It is such a great way to start a day...

Suddenly.... mommmm, wake up, I'm late for school.... The sound that comes from outside, manage to make me jump from the bed and get ready for work...

Free and Release...

After two weeks being dealing with the auditors, now I'm 'free', but still gotta contact on-and-off with the auditors and my boss whose at this moment is in 'somewhere' out of the country for work. I will be 'keep-in-touch' with him especially when he just bought a new blackberry before his departure. Thank you for the today's technology.

Well... today for the first time since about more than 10 years ago, now I'm start playing badminton again, I'm not even sure either I still can be pro again after long time not holding a racquet. I'm very excited to start it again, feeling young and being wild again.

I asked my dear FHR's secretary to accompany me to the badminton court located somewhere in Kelana Jaya, but a little bit of 'kua' kua' kua' when we got stuck and took a wrong turn in the heavy traffic. I started to act 'macho' and 'cool' as usual (ha! ha! ha!) even though I'm actually a bit panic when I had no idea about the place.

After about one hour stucked in the traffic, at last, we managed to get to the court. A big 'thank you' to my dear Azi who manage to bring me on time and we manage to play for about half an hour.

Haaa..... release my tense....

The Way Home - Synopsis

Well... I got nothing to do!! Now Malaysian is in public holiday... (again!!), after the Chinese New Year Holiday last week... I got nothing to do in mind today and decide to watch a Korean movie titled "The Way Home" with my kids.

The story was directed by Lee Jung Hyang and host casting were Yoo Seung Ho (as a boy) and Kim Ui-Boon (as grandmother). There was not much talking involved, just the nice simple action and mimic. Anyway, it is a very nice movie and managed to capture our sentimental heart.

It is the story about 7 year-old boy, born and raised in a big city gotta be sent to the rural village to stay with his mute grand mother for awhile. Being a city boy, he used to live in modernisation and he is facing difficulties adapting with the village life. This is where all those conflict arise, between him and the granny who always being silent and patient.

The movie creates emotional leeway for us reminiscing over the freedom of life and our most cherished resources - nature.

The End and Sooo 'Touching"... Kwang! Kwang! Kwang!

Start as a Bloggers

Well, I got nothing to do tonight. Office load!!! (or maybe I should called it 'toad'..) very busy like a bee... but only at work... and now, at home, no more thinking about work, at least for a few minutes, but most of the time, I still couldn't get it out off my brain...

Sometimes, I just day-dream and singing inside my car on the way back home to 'cooling' myself after work. Usually it will take about half an hour to reach home, but not include the traffic-jem that I have to face everyday, plus the toll that I gotta pay.... Huah! Huah!!

So, I browse thru my dear friend's blog.. and get some idea, why not I start my simple own blog?? Emm... 'good idea' and I will learn it bit by bit as time goes by like one Malay proverb "Sedikit-sedikit, lama-lama jadi bukit"- Sorry for the English speaker, you gotta learn Malay to know the meaning -

My "English??".... not bad, as long as, at least I can understand what I'm typing..He! He!

OK, good enough for a start.... and Bye!